August 20, 2010

utility

"The quality or condition of being useful; usefulness"

i don't know about you

but when i was matt's age i didn't

really have a sense of what i was going to do

there was pressure to go to university

or collage

or get a job.

it is hard to know what

we are supposed to do

but the longer i live

the more simple it is to me

"do to other's as you would have them do to you"
it isn't called the Golden Rule for nothing!
:-)

whatever we do we need to have a posture of 

thinking of others more highly then ourselves.

that is my desire for all my kids

that no matter what they do

they would be useful to God

there is no higher calling 

or more satisfying way to live.

yesterday we had to say goodbye to them

did my heart almost break?

almost

but

do i believe there is One who takes care of them

better then I?

i do.

do i believe He will fulfill His purposes in their lives?

i do.

August 19, 2010

its a beautiful thing

before we went to the movies we

decided to go to harvey's.

i am not a fast food, burger kind of person

but as you can see the rest of the 'crew'

were happy as clams!

it is sooo good to be together

being happy at harvey's,

right now mattie is playing a kid's guitar

that he tuned and it sounds wonderful

i am going to miss them sooo much!!

we have one more day here

it will be a running around getting last minute things

packing (yuk)

and of course,

the traditional cowan friday night pizza together.

we fly out early early on saturday morning

have to be at the airport at 5:30.

going to miss the kids but the

island is calling my name

i can hear it.

i can.

August 18, 2010

family in film

today i sorted through photos that we had taken

over the years

putting them in piles

remembering

reminsicing

sighing

laughing

crying

so precious

basically sorted them into

general family,

friends

then a pile for each of us

individually

emily, bless her heart is going to put them

in albums

i would LOVE to scan some of them

but we don't have a scanner there

so many wonderful memories

i am thankful for my family tonight

i am a blessed woman

August 17, 2010

disheveled

as soon as i saw this daisy in my viewfinder

i thought

disheveled

i am not sure if that is a word or not

but here is my definition

unkept

unruly

disorderly

disheveled

i think many of us are disheveled under a guise

of orderliness or beauty

our clothes look good,

hair is straightened and combed

face washed

but inside?

a little disheveled

i know i am right now

we have moved 4 times in 3 weeks of being in

nova scotia

i am starting to become undone

it isn't easy to live out of a suitcase that is for sure

there is that delicate balance between

longing for home

and making the most of everyday here

visiting with the kids

and friends

there is also a delicate balance

between the outside being unorderly..

undone, unkept

and yet the inside

still being at peace

oh yeah

that is what i want:

p.e.a.c.e

within

so if you see me and you think

that debi has worn that same top for

the past 3 times i have seen her

it's called

no laundry done!

i may seem desheveled

but i am well groomed inside.

I can thank God for that!

August 16, 2010

remembering roatan

i gave this shell to kathryne and paul

 when they visited us in roatan

now here in canada, in their home,

i was drawn to it like a moth to a flame

~~home~~

we are flying back on saturday

this week will be interesting since we have no car

i realized when we came here tonight

 that we didn't get any groceries

ummm... oops

manana!

i have a new appreciation for people who need to rely on buses

or friends to take them places

we tried to rent a car but they are booked

crazy eh?

oh well.

today i woke up with an upset stomach

and it lasted most of the day

so i lounged around reading my book

resting, and

staying hydrated through it all

i feel better tonight

i am thankful for that

bob and matt went swimming at cole harbour place

it was good for them

so tonight we are getting acclimated in yet

another new place

i am grateful that they are allowing us to stay here

while they are in cape breton

but i will be honest

i am longing for our own bed

my own cupboards

our home.

yes.

remembering roatan tonight

August 15, 2010

 

♥ rock

i gave this heart shaped rock to marsha

years ago

when i first met her she had a  bowl carved out of stone on her coffee table filled with

rocks of many different shapes, colors and sizes

i knew i had found a kindred spirit on that day!!

the verse on the rock was handwritten by me

it says

He will quiet you with His love

Zeph. 3:17

oh my goodness how beautiful is that?

why does His love quiet us?

because no matter what is happening,

what people are saying, 

or not saying,

whether we are succeeding

or failing

whether we have our heads up high

or are weighed down,

whether we see the silver lining

or only a dark cloud

the knowledge of His love

constant and unending

is quieting to the soul.

no matter what

nothing can separate us from His love

 

For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, 

nor angels nor principalities nor powers,

nor things present nor things to come,

nor height nor depth,

nor any other created thing, 

shall be able to separate us from the love of God

which is in 

Christ Jesus our Lord.

(Romans 8:38-39)

i don't know about you but that is 

ridiculously comforting

it quiets me

it soothes me

it takes the pressure off me

no matter what i am loved

no matter what you are loved.

hallelujah

♥

today we spent the day with ken and trish 

and it was sooooo beautiful and rich

we talked, we laughed, we cried,

we share our stories in a real and honest ways

we played cards

we ate together

we sang together

such sweet harmonies....

it will be a day that i will remember

for many days to come

love was there

He was there.

♥