Saturday, August 21, 2010

August 20, 2010


"The quality or condition of being useful; usefulness"

i don't know about you
but when i was matt's age i didn't
really have a sense of what i was going to do
there was pressure to go to university
or collage
or get a job.

it is hard to know what
we are supposed to do
but the longer i live
the more simple it is to me

"do to other's as you would have them do to you"
it isn't called the Golden Rule for nothing!
whatever we do we need to have a posture of 
thinking of others more highly then ourselves.

that is my desire for all my kids
that no matter what they do
they would be useful to God

there is no higher calling 
or more satisfying way to live.

yesterday we had to say goodbye to them
did my heart almost break?
do i believe there is One who takes care of them
better then I?

i do.

do i believe He will fulfill His purposes in their lives?

i do.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

August 19, 2010

its a beautiful thing

before we went to the movies we
decided to go to harvey's.
i am not a fast food, burger kind of person
but as you can see the rest of the 'crew'
were happy as clams!

it is sooo good to be together
being happy at harvey's,
right now mattie is playing a kid's guitar
that he tuned and it sounds wonderful
i am going to miss them sooo much!!

we have one more day here
it will be a running around getting last minute things
packing (yuk)
and of course,
the traditional cowan friday night pizza together.

we fly out early early on saturday morning
have to be at the airport at 5:30.

going to miss the kids but the
island is calling my name
i can hear it.
i can.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

August 18, 2010

family in film

today i sorted through photos that we had taken
over the years
putting them in piles

so precious

basically sorted them into
general family,
then a pile for each of us

emily, bless her heart is going to put them
in albums
i would LOVE to scan some of them
but we don't have a scanner there

so many wonderful memories
i am thankful for my family tonight
i am a blessed woman

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

August 17, 2010


as soon as i saw this daisy in my viewfinder
i thought

i am not sure if that is a word or not
but here is my definition

i think many of us are disheveled under a guise
of orderliness or beauty
our clothes look good,
hair is straightened and combed
face washed

but inside?
a little disheveled

i know i am right now
we have moved 4 times in 3 weeks of being in
nova scotia
i am starting to become undone
it isn't easy to live out of a suitcase that is for sure

there is that delicate balance between
longing for home
and making the most of everyday here
visiting with the kids
and friends

there is also a delicate balance
between the outside being unorderly..
undone, unkept
and yet the inside
still being at peace

oh yeah
that is what i want:

so if you see me and you think
that debi has worn that same top for
the past 3 times i have seen her
it's called
no laundry done!

i may seem desheveled
but i am well groomed inside.
I can thank God for that!

Monday, August 16, 2010

August 16, 2010

remembering roatan

i gave this shell to kathryne and paul
 when they visited us in roatan

now here in canada, in their home,
i was drawn to it like a moth to a flame

we are flying back on saturday
this week will be interesting since we have no car
i realized when we came here tonight
 that we didn't get any groceries
ummm... oops
i have a new appreciation for people who need to rely on buses
or friends to take them places

we tried to rent a car but they are booked
crazy eh?
oh well.

today i woke up with an upset stomach
and it lasted most of the day
so i lounged around reading my book
resting, and
staying hydrated through it all

i feel better tonight
i am thankful for that

bob and matt went swimming at cole harbour place
it was good for them

so tonight we are getting acclimated in yet
another new place
i am grateful that they are allowing us to stay here
while they are in cape breton

but i will be honest
i am longing for our own bed
my own cupboards
our home.

remembering roatan tonight

Sunday, August 15, 2010

August 15, 2010


♥ rock

i gave this heart shaped rock to marsha
years ago
when i first met her she had a  bowl carved out of stone on her coffee table filled with
rocks of many different shapes, colors and sizes

i knew i had found a kindred spirit on that day!!

the verse on the rock was handwritten by me
it says
He will quiet you with His love
Zeph. 3:17

oh my goodness how beautiful is that?
why does His love quiet us?
because no matter what is happening,
what people are saying, 
or not saying,
whether we are succeeding
or failing
whether we have our heads up high
or are weighed down,
whether we see the silver lining
or only a dark cloud
the knowledge of His love
constant and unending
is quieting to the soul.

no matter what
nothing can separate us from His love
For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, 
nor angels nor principalities nor powers,
nor things present nor things to come,
nor height nor depth,
nor any other created thing, 
shall be able to separate us from the love of God
which is in 
Christ Jesus our Lord.
(Romans 8:38-39)

i don't know about you but that is 
ridiculously comforting
it quiets me
it soothes me
it takes the pressure off me

no matter what i am loved
no matter what you are loved.

today we spent the day with ken and trish 
and it was sooooo beautiful and rich
we talked, we laughed, we cried,
we share our stories in a real and honest ways
we played cards
we ate together
we sang together
such sweet harmonies....

it will be a day that i will remember
for many days to come
love was there
He was there.