August 9, 2010

remembering mom

today is my mom's birthday,

even though she died 5 years ago

i still remember her,

miss her,

wish she was here

so today when i went to martinique beach

with my friend karen,

i brought this photo along to the sea

 i took this photo  of her back in 1980

and chose to make her my 365 photo for today.

for those of you who have lost parents,

or a spouse,

or a child,

or a friend

you know that days like today are difficult

to navigate

but yet it seemed normal for me to

honour her in this way

i am sure that the ladies on the beach who were watching me

put a photograph on a pile of stones

(in an attempt to keep the photo dry from the rushing waves)

and then squat down,

adjust it,

try again,

and again 

til i got the one i wanted.

i don't care.

it says

mom

you matter to me

even when you are gone you can still

so beautifully and so easily capture my thoughts

 and i don't care if people think

i am nuts.

i am not

i am remembering

and i always will.

missing you still mom.

always.