August 2, 2010

standing through it all

i took these while waiting for mattie

at the penhorn mall bus stop.

our phone was dead so we couldn't let him know where we were

so we were waiting for quite awhile til we finally

figured to go use the payphone!  

what a novel idea...

:-)

anyways,

waiting is always easier with a camera in hand

time passes so sweetly when i have my camera

i can be in a doctor's office, a government building,

outside at a garage

wherever i am waiting it is easier

because no matter where i am

i seem to be be able to find the beauty of the place

i have a thing for clover

the whole field by the bus stop was a mess of clover

as a kid i would roll in it

i was pretty tempted to do the 'roll'

but i didn't

:-)

we have been under some stress lately 

Mattie is going through a rough time

we are glad we are here for him but

that stuff is the hardest as a parent to navigate

because we love them so much and hate to see them

hurt or suffer in any way

but pain is a part of life if we are real and honest

i remember once years ago realizing that

He is in the middle of my pain

it was a simple but revolutionary thought that changed me forever

we tend to try to be good, good, good 

and when we aren't good, good, good we pretend we are 

instead of admitting to God and finding Him right there in the middle of 

all that bad, bad, bad.

see the photo with the yellow flower?

you may think that is pretty but it is way more then that for me

the one standing up tall is symbolic of what i want my life to be like

there are always situations 

people

pain

that threatens to bring us down

but i want to remain standing

believing through it all.

i find comfort in this verse:

"A bruised reed He will not break

And a dimly burning wick He will not extinguish; 

He will faithfully bring forth justice."

Isaiah 42:3 

no matter what you are going through to today

good, good, good...

or bad, bad, bad...

know that you won't break under it,

but be able to stand

because He is in the middle of it..

He is.